never neverland

the peter pan syndrome...

Everyone has that episode in their life... that one phase, that one moment that you just never wanted to end.

i think i'm experiencing "a moment" right now where i like the way things are... i'm making the most of the time i have... before i completely grow up and take responsibility for all the priorities i have in my life. I know it's not gonna last forever... i know it may end at any moment now... in a few hours even... but i just wanna cherish the moment... the memories of what i have at this point is all i really have to keep.

The fact that this "lifestyle" is gonna end at some point in the next few hours crushes me... how can i miss out on something so great?

I'm making a sacrifice right now... giving up something that means a lot to me for a higher purpose... it may be worth it (hell, i know it is!)... but it's changing the course of my life like i never thought it would. The insanity is astounding.

There are so many moments in my life that i would like to relive all over again... but i know that will never happen. But i DO dwell on them... and that makes me an individual living in the illusion of "neverland".

I have my days... some better than others. I'm having one of my better days... and i wish i could just stay in never neverland.